I am: Words to My Abusers

I am: Words to My Abusers

I am not what you did to me

I am not the weak little girl you wanted me to be

I am not the scared little girl you made me out to be

I am not the emotions you made me feel

I am not the “no” you wanted me to say; I refused to give you that power

I am not the little girl, whose sexual freedom, you wanted to set free; little did you know a different abuser beat you to it

I am not less than anyone

I am not unworthy of healthy love

I am not unworthy of respect

I am not as dumb as you thought I was

I am not a cunt

I am not a slut

I am not a whore

I am the one who picked myself up after you knocked me down, time and time again

I am the one who heals that wounded little girl you tried to break; you thought you were strong but I am stronger

I am not the weak one; you are the weak one

I am courageously facing what you’ve done to me while you hide in the shadows of lies and denial; you cannot hide in those shadows from me; we both know what you’ve done

I am the one who was strong enough to break the cycle of abuse; you nearly had me, but I refused to let you turn me into that; I AM NOTHING LIKE YOU!!!

I am the one who turned the damage you did to me into a strength

I am the guilt you’ve had to live with and will continue to live with

I am the shame you carry for what you’ve done

I am the self-loathing you feel for what you’ve done

I am the reason you redirect your gaze when I walk into a room

I am the presence that silences you

I am the one you victimized; you are the one who has to live with that

I am no longer your victim

I am going to be okay

I am stronger for what you’ve done to me; don’t expect a thank you

I am the one who will look back on what you’ve done to me and I will know that I am not the one to blame; I did nothing wrong; I did nothing to deserve what you did to me; it wasn’t my fault then and it isn’t my fault now; YOU are the one at fault.

I am strong; I am courageous; I am brave; I am a fighter

I am kind; I am compassionate; I am empathetic; I am loving; I am caring

I am not your victim

I am not your victim

I AM NOT YOUR VICTIM

I AM ME

I AM A SURVIVOR

To all of the strong and courageous abuse survivors, I share a slightly altered version of one of my favorite quotes: 

You didn’t break me, darling. You don’t own that kind of power.

– Unknown

Keep fighting for yourself. Do NOT let anyone make you feel less than, unworthy, or unlovable. You are more than, you are worthy, and you are so very lovable. You, My Dear, are a survivor. 

Let us be empowered by the hell we’ve survived. Let us find strength in our healing. Let us take our lives back. 

 

With the strength and courage of a survivor,

I extend Loving-Kindness to all other survivors ♥

 

 

 

 

 

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