A New Chapter

Today I am standing at the feet of a new beginning. A new chapter in my life. Today also marks 21 months alcohol free for me!! I am super proud of myself for that.

I find myself single again, but I know in my heart that I did everything I could to make it work. The timing just wasn’t right. Unfortunately it took us five months to figure that out, or at least to accept it anyway.

I’ve learned a lot about myself and I’ve grown a lot over the last 5 months. I think I might be healthier than I gave myself credit for. I feel sadness in my heart, I’m hurting, but what’s more than that is that I just want her to be happy. I want us both to just be happy.

Back to my next chapter in life, What does that look like? What do I want it to look like?

I want to spend more time with family and friends.

The weather is getting nice again here in Minnesota, so I’d like to get back into hiking.

Things seem to be opening more, I’m hoping that means there will be more available in person yoga classes I can attend. I’ve neglected my yoga practice for far too long. I know there are outdoor yoga classes too, I should look into those.

I’ve already begun to bring meditation back into my life with joining a 6 week meditation class. I think this is going to be a huge positive shift for me. I’m really looking forward to it.

I need to start taking steps toward finishing my degree. So, I think what I am going to do is to just start taking one class at a time, just so I can keep moving forward with it. My passion has always been with helping people. My dream career is to be a therapist. It’s never going to happen if I don’t start making some forward progress here.

I’ve come to the realization that I am starting to love myself. It seems the healthier I become, the more love and respect I have for myself. I’m going to keep working on loving and respecting myself. This will also help me to create healthy boundaries for myself, others in my life, and the future people that come into my life.

I’m also going to start working more on my gifts. I have a very intuitive way about me that I would like to strengthen. I’m also an empath, I would like to strengthen that gift as well and learn how to set healthy safe boundaries around that gift.

I’ve been saying for years that I need to eat a healthier diet. While I have lost a fair amount of weight over the past month, it has been a stress diet, not a healthy diet. So, my plan is to start feeding my body better.

I’m not going to just start feeding my body better food, but I need to start feeding my mind, body and soul better. More self-care and self-love behaviors and activities.

This chapter of my life is all about me finding my center balance again and self-care. The more me I become the better I feel about myself. I will use this time to continue working on becoming the best version of me that I can be.

I have faith in the Universe that it will bring me my person. That person will be the right person at the right time and we will compliment each other in life. Together we will build a solid foundation to build a happy, healthy, respectful, loving relationship. Until then, I will work on further healing myself, self-care, and continue working on my life goals.

Here’s to my next chapter.

With love and light,


A new shift, a new beginning

A new shift, a new beginning

Today I started working 2nd shift instead of the overnight shift. I enjoyed the overnight shift, but I think I am going to like this shift a lot more. I am a Chemical Dependency Technician at a drug and alcohol treatment facility; males 18+.

With working this shift I get to interact with the guys more. It’s nice to hear them chatting and laughing together. They are great guys and I have such respect for the courage they have to tackle the demon, aka addiction, that haunts their daily lives.

As I’ve mentioned in a couple previous posts, I’m also working towards becoming more of a minimalist.

So I figure with all these changes, I will also start being more deliberate with my eating habits. Tonight’s dinner was Taylor Farms Organic Power Greens Wellness Blend salad with a serving of shredded Colby Jack cheese and enough Western dressing to add a little kick of flavor.

What is in the Wellness Blend salad, you ask?

Well, let me tell you:

  • Spinach
  • Mizuna (I have no idea what this is. I’ve never heard of it)
  • Chard
  • and Kale

I wasn’t sure how I was going to like it in just plain salad form, as I’ve only ever used it in smoothies or mixed with either scrambled eggs or in an omelet. To my surprise it tasted like any other salad with cheese and western dressing would. And I brought Cuties with me for a snack. Go me!

One of these days the changes I desire to make will stick. Maybe it’s this time and maybe it’s not. But if I don’t keep trying, change will never come.