Hello Darkness, My Old Friend

How do you do it? How do you creep up on me without me knowing?

I am sitting right at the edge of your nothingness, your dark abyss. I am here with that horrible aching numbness, that emptiness, and I am fighting with everything I have to not give in to you.

I refuse to let you bring me to my knees begging and pleading for mercy, again.  You feed on my weaknesses, my insecurities, my heartbreak, my frustration, my exhaustion; I know I feed you well.

What is so much more than that, though, is the overwhelming and relentless amount of love I have in my heart. That is too much for you to swallow. It’s your kryptonite and I am full stocked!

You may wear me down, you may bring me to my knees, and you have dragged me into an unimaginable darkness but I am so much stronger than you think and I will get back up every.fucking.time.

Depression, my old friend, you have won many battles but I am going to win the war.

Your old friend,

The Survivor

 

But You Don’t Get To Give Up

But You Don’t Get To Give Up

We don’t always get it right.

There are going to be bad days and you will feel powerless to them.

There are going to be days of sickness.

There are going to be days when your world feels so dark. 

There are going to be days when your world feels so small.

And there will be days when you feel so small in this great big world.

There will be days when just the thought of getting out of bed keeps you there longer.

But you don’t get to give up

Because…

We don’t always get it wrong either.

Because…

There are going to be good days in which you celebrate life and love.

Because…

There are going to be days when you feel the healthiest you’ve ever felt.

Because…

There are going to be days when your heart is so full of love that it lights up your world.

Because…

There are going to be times when the night sky catches your eye and the vastness of the Universe will take your breath away

because…

There will be days when you are larger than life.

Because…

There will be days when nothing in the world will keep you from getting out of bed and facing a beautiful day with the sun shining it’s warmth and brightness on your beautiful face. 

So…

You can have bad days

You can stay in bed all day, weekend, or week.

You can fall apart.

You can cry until you cry yourself out of tears. 

But you don’t get to give up.

Because..

There is so much left to fight for and you are worth fighting for!

With Loving-kindness ♥