Taking the first step

My transformation into living more of a minimalist lifestyle is slowly taking place.

I’m to a point where I am ready to start selling my stuff. Starting with that damn TV. I give way too much time to that thing. It needs to go.

I also need to sell my living room furniture so that I can purchase my convertible/sleeper sofa. Possibly and end table or two as well, but I want them to be very simple. Perhaps a sitting chair as well. Some sort of unique find at a quaint little shop. With a convertible/sleeper sofa I will be able to get rid of my crappy mattress. I also need to get rid of my bedroom set. I’ve had it for just over 21 years, I think it’s time to part ways with it.

Once all of that is done I can create my meditation space. I think I am looking forward to this the most. It will consist of a mini table top zen garden, a bonsai tree, Chakra stones, and an earthy scented candle. It will be a space of tranquility. Slowly but surely I would like to create my entire living space into something quite similar.

Brilliant! I just decided that since I won’t have a need for a bed, my bedroom will become somewhat of a yoga space. I wonder if I can find a small TV with a built-in DVD player (I love my Elena Brower Yoga DVD)

And I can hang MY nature photo’s throughout. Perhaps even some that I’ve added inspirational quotes to. I will definitely need one with a Cheryl Strayed quote!

So, here is my week’s goal:

  • Take photo’s of everything I want to sell and get them posted for sale.
  • Take books and DVD/blu-rays to Half Priced Books. Maybe even donate some to work.
  • Look for a place to dispose of mattress/box spring and dresser/night stand.
  • Donate clothes or sell to second hand/consignment shop.

This might be a bit ambitious for one week. I’ll start with the top two and work my way down.

Very excited about this new transformation/path! I think it will make a huge difference on my way of life.


It’s Time To Move Forward: I’ve been here long enough

It’s Time To Move Forward: I’ve been here long enough

I’ve reached a “now or never” point in my life. I’ve felt myself building up to it the last couple of weeks, more so this past week. I knew it was coming, but I didn’t want to force it. I wanted it to come in it’s own time. I knew I had to keep my mind and heart open in order for it to arrive. When it was ready, it was like a switch flipped. I literally said to myself, “I can’t stay in this spot anymore. It’s time to move forward”. Suddenly I had this awareness/clarity of my unhealthy, albeit unintentional, emotional responses. 

It’s as though I heard my own advice. I heard my therapist. I heard the Universe. I get it now. I see it. I don’t have to continue being a victim. I am not a victim anymore. I haven’t had to be a victim for many years now, but because it was the only role I knew, I got stuck there. It was my comfort zone, my very unhealthy security blanket. I didn’t know how to be anything other than a victim. 


I have control over being victimized now. I have the power to protect myself in a healthy way. I have the power to say no if I don’t like how something makes me feel. I have the power to walk away. I have the power to check my thoughts when they seem irrational. I have the power to set realistic and reasonable exceptions for myself and others. I have the power to love myself, to nurture myself, to protect myself. It’s not anyone else’s responsibility, it’s mine. If I continue to depend on others to do that for me I will spend the rest of my life dipping in and out of disappointment, suffering, and victimization (which I put on myself). 

I don’t have to live as an adult child for the rest of my life. I have a very healthy functional adult that lives inside of me. It is time to put the wounded child, the “I don’t give a shit about anything” disconnected teenager, and the adult child in the backseat all buckled up and safe so that the functional adult can take control of the healing/recovery process. The others have done their best to protect and survive, and they have succeeded to this point. I appreciate all they’ve done to protect us over the years, but it’s time we move on to the next phase. We survived all of the abuse, now we get to focus on healing so we can live a happy healthy life. 

To my wounded child, my “I don’t give a shit about anything” disconnected teenager, and my adult child…I’ve got this. We are going to be okay. I’m going to make sure of that. You’ve done an amazing job getting us to this point, but we can’t stay in this spot forever, we are miserable. It’s okay to let go of what we’ve always known. I know change is scary, but you have my word that this will be a wonderful change. It’s going to take time to get through this stage, so I ask that you be patient with me, stay safely secured in your seat-belts, and trust that I will get us all there safely. 

It’s time; I’m ready! 

With Loving-Kindness ♥